Sunday, July 15, 2012
8:59:00 PM
I had this particular conversation with Lisa on
"Why must we first lose something in order to treasure?"
We never came to a conclusion.
There are some path that I'll never want to walk again
Some stuff that I'll never want to try again.
But there is one thing that I can never stop trying and must carry on walking.
That is FAMILY.
I hate to be right about certain issues and yet have no solutions.
But if it has come to this extend, I'll just accept.
Lives will change
Habits Shaken
Routines will be broken
We were too used to minding our own business to even care for each other
and we were wrong, so wrong.
Suddenly, I realize that we have all become so distant.
We have lost the family touch.
The family touch is what I define as
Something more then just sharing a surname or a house.
It is the state of being in utmost comfort where
The emotions that pours out from a smile from anyone sharing this bond
far exceed the universe and goes from moment to moment.
The last time I went swimming with my dad was 9 years ago.
Today, The fam finally decided to go for a swim.
I can't explain the joy of watching us swim and I just wish this joyous moment didn't end.
It might have felt weird looking at the way you change breath.
It felt awkward, strange but somehow I felt strangely comfortable and happy.
It will take a lot for everyone to come on board this vessel
But I remain hopeful that this shall be the start of something better.
Dad, I just want to say
We accept you for you, Nothing is going to change that
I understand that change is hard, but know that changes always happens for the better.
Your life might be different now, but take comfort that we are with you.
We might not have been the best, but we will try to be your best.
I pray that we can put the past behind us and look forward to a better and happy future.
I pray that you will finally come to understand the importance of having love ones by your side,
having us to love and care for you and to find a new hope to continue living.
Will you ever notice me...
Thursday, August 16, 2007
2:01:00 AM
I really really don't know what to do about myself. Promises i made to myself are not even fullfill. ARGN....can't believe it. I always make sure whatever promises i made to others would be fullfilled but right now, i can't fullfill my own promises.
Anyway, monday was A GREAT day to begin with. 13 AUG, the day i was filled with excitement. At the start of the monday, i was quite nervous and afraid. This was because we receive our O lvl MT results and sit for our O lvl ENGLISH oral exams. At 1015am, we went down to the hall. I gt an amazing B3M. Although i did not gt distinction, i knew a 3 was good enough for me. Ng said my lowest is 5 while my highest was 4. I keep telling myself I DO NOT BELONG TO 4 or 5, THE LEAST IS 3.HAHA so i was damn happy.
Tuesday was even better, audition got patch and all of us freaking got times 2 exp. SPIDER lvled frm 8-23 haha and doudou lvl frm 25-30 wee~! I forgo my sleep and went to school straight after finishing audition. *im crazy*
Wednesday, so tired in class. I was trying my very best not to sleep in class. Lucky many teachers was absent. MR Roderick should not be so insulting to us, made us embrass by asking us to ask MR NOEL the meaning of aphrodisiac. I rush home to get a quick nap before starting to do my maths. Alicia marmie came to my house to study. ~AUDITION NO BUG LE~
PS: The definition of aphrodisiac is a substance that increases sexual desire or potency.Labels: PHYCO MYSELF TO STUDY
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Thursday, August 2, 2007
3:17:00 PM
Whao....its been 42 days since ive last blog. LMAO im starting to suck cos when i have time to blog, i will be smitten by audition. Anyway, there's a few things im gonna change to my blog.1st: No writing of re- collection (no one will read anyway)2nd: Spent 5 mins everyday to blog on current happenings3rd: Change the song......ok....this week was rather sad for most peicaians. our dearest friend/ brother/ leader has commited sucide on sunday 6.25pm. To this day, i still can't accept the fact that your gone. This news have came as a shocker not just to me but to all who have cared for you. Went to his wake on tues and i still can't accept the news. Seeing your picture and coffin was a torture to me. It took me every muscles to stop me from crying. Although i did not show my grief, in my heart, its crying out to you.Im sorry for not attending your cremation today. This is because I know i would not be able to take it. Yes, your physically not with us now, but you will always live in my heart. Your death have taught me to REALLY treasure the people around me. Your actions was really silly. But i know you really cannot take it lerh. I believe you did what you think was the way to gain happiness.Your death have cause me to be restless this whole week. But i will be strong. Anyway, i was suppose to go ECP to racky and run the cross country. My sis was not feeling well thus we plan to go tmr. Thats all for today ^^Labels: treasure the those ard u
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Thursday, June 21, 2007
1:32:00 PM
okok...so what happened on the 21 April....Alicia marmie and I went to palawan beach to tan ourself. But the farking sunrays was so irregular that it made Alicia marmie DULAN.....worst of all, a dumb bee have to come and pester us. So we decided to go back to the hotel. Then we check out then went home>.<23 AprilMondayToday was my last day of me being a guide....my journey has ended but not totally. It has just ended in my secondary life but it has not ended in my life. As the saying goes " Once a guide, anways a guide"....guiding sprite will never die in me.....But i was a little sad thoughAfter school, i took a cab to Kovan. Allan, my sis and alvan share the cab fare>.<>
Oh ya, I keep seeing the tamil construction worker from SRJC. He and his GF doing so intimate stuff in public. Somehow i find his GF is like a whore and darling ask if she shld break with snake
ps: As per date, evilpiglet AKA elaine is still my darling
25 April
Wednesday
Gt freaking napfa test today....its actually a retest cos i freaking didn't manage to get gold....tmd only by few seconds...nvm ba this time i make sure i will make it de>.<>
After that me, allan, my sis, dawn adrian shu hui clarrisa went to hougang mall....we go there drink bubble tea. My sis say the chocolate ice blend damn shyt....so we fool ard watson then walk to the bus stop which was so so far away....then lightning started to appear...so i was acting stupid, every lightning i see i will squat down....LMAO
so we gt on the bus then on the way, a taxi have to had an accident and cause a traffic jam....actually gt no jam de lo is that stupid driver dun wanna move his car away.....sitting beside us was some peicaians, they damn kpkb so i went to kan them>.<>
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1:07:00 PM
ok so 20 April to 21 June........
thats how long it took me to come back to blog....
Reason: After the death of my grandma(father mom)
i began to see how vulnerable life is, so i did so soul searching.
i wonder, how im i gng to make sure i live a life full of discovery, full of excitement and life so fullfilling that it makes onlooker go WOW.
Another reason is that when i blog, i feel myself trying to use new vocabulary and that would help in my command of the language. Since I don't write essays often, blogging would make up of lost essays. blogging is also a whole lot easier then writing essays. This is because in essays, u have to follow the topic given, follow guidelines and making sure one do not write out of point. Whereas in blogging, what one do is to pen down their thoughts. Its totally up to ones' mind to write, there is no right or wrong.
Back to my life. What have i been doing the past few months? one may ask. hmmm....though i have not been blogging, i have been keeping hand written dairy. Yes Yes....i hear people saying, i want to see what nice things have happen in my life.....lol freak myself i don't even accept links how to have people wanting to read(IDIOT)
Actually what i write here is actually for me to review my life blah blah blah
Will you ever notice me...
Sunday, April 29, 2007
4:47:00 PM
20 aprilsaturdayalicia marmie came to my hse today and help mi do blog haha....i damn noob in blog everything also dunnothen i bought A cash.....coz my sis say lvl so high le still wear like shytso bo bian haha then at 3.30 my dad fetch my family and alicia to sentosa went we reach there so late liao lo so cannot tann....so we slack in hotel at night actually wanted to sit the sentosa mrt de....bt the stupid hotel la nver give us complimentary tickets....then my dad go quarrel with them ask why they din give us since we are the member....my dad them fierce lohe said: i challenge u, do u dare to take up the challengeguy: nodad: come on man, ur a guy not a girl, a guy dare to take up the challengeso he was indirectly saying that the guy was a gayhaha....then we went to kou fu to eat....haha tried new things todayi ate frog leg.....muhaha i tot the taste would sucks bt it taste like chicken even better then chicken actuallyaft that we go back hotel....gt 1 tv show abt proffesional killersdamn pro, wish i could be like them fight so wellthen i msg piglet....ask her why she 24 hr in audiithen blah blah...i was so into the show that i din bother abt sounds coming frm the hotel cardboard....untill my maid say it out then i was like ya hoh why gt this soundi tried not to freak out...then i fell asleep....Labels: frog legs way to go
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4:15:00 PM
20 april
friday
ive decided...
whats gone is gone
i shld jus carry on and not ponder over my failure
its time i pick myself up....
napha 5 station? NO PROBLEM
was quite surprize that my standing board jump i actually jumped 174..OMG larhz thats like 15cm over my height....haha and i improve by 19cm...YES!!!
then i did an obsence act, din realise kang was there then she said i was dancing...Zzzz. Then ask mi if wanna join her dance club lmao then she ask why i din come yesterday, when gt maths lesson cannot dun come must force....haha i so sad lo come also sian sian
then i do the incline pull up...haha omg lo the pole drop on my teeth then i keep laughing so only do 12 but i change it to 14 muahaha
then went home i played audi as i have a date with my dar woshiides
he say date mi at 7.30 de lo then w8 so long he nver come
so i go out with my ah ma...she jio me go eat dinner with her
sianz...then my stupid bro hp kena confiscated then take my phone
so stupid he kena suspected of smoking outside sch then have to body checkLabels: shyt man
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