I had this particular conversation with Lisa on
"Why must we first lose something in order to treasure?"
We never came to a conclusion.

There are some path that I'll never want to walk again
Some stuff that I'll never want to try again.
But there is one thing that I can never stop trying and must carry on walking.
That is FAMILY.

I hate to be right about certain issues and yet have no solutions.
But if it has come to this extend, I'll just accept.

Lives will change
Habits Shaken
Routines will be broken

We were too used to minding our own business to even care for each other
and we were wrong, so wrong.
Suddenly, I realize that we have all become so distant.
We have lost the family touch.

The family touch is what I define as
Something more then just sharing a surname or a house.
It is the state of being in utmost comfort where
The emotions that pours out from a smile from anyone sharing this bond
far exceed the universe and goes from moment to moment.





The last time I went swimming with my dad was 9 years ago.
Today, The fam finally decided to go for a swim.
I can't explain the joy of watching us swim and I just wish this joyous moment didn't end.
It might have felt weird looking at the way you change breath.
It felt awkward, strange but somehow I felt strangely comfortable and happy.
 

It will take a lot for everyone to come on board this vessel
But I remain hopeful that this shall be the start of something better.



Dad, I just want to say
We accept you for you, Nothing is going to change that
I understand that change is hard, but know that changes always happens for the better.
Your life might be different now, but take comfort that we are with you.
We might not have been the best, but we will try to be your best.
I pray that we can put the past behind us and look forward to a better and happy future.
I pray that you will finally come to understand the importance of having love ones by your side,
having us to love and care for you and to find a new hope to continue living.